My knees hurt, my ankles are stiff, but still I rise. Still I rise three days a week at 4:30am and drive across town to workout. I’ve said on numerous occasions that this workout program has been the best thing that has ever happened to me. I think that I have somehow brainwashed myself into thinking that I can’t survive without the program.

I can remember very vividly when I heard about the program. It was over the Christmas holiday in 2005. I was talking to a friend who suggested that I join the workout program that she was planning to join at the start of the new year. I was at my heaviest weight of all time. I was tipping the scale at 265lbs. I know, that’s huge! I had convinced myself I wasn’t really that fat…I was lying.

Anyway back to the topic of the post…my knees hurt. I know that I need to stop participating in this particular workout…it’s going to cripple me if I don’t watch out. But I’m afraid to stop! I want to lose another 30 lbs, but I’m going to have to part ways with the program or my ability to walk. Since giving up walking is not an option, I’m going to have to figure out how to live without GM. I don’t ever want to be the me that I was so I feel confident that I’ll be fine.